Showing posts with label friendship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label friendship. Show all posts

Monday, January 11, 2016

[Code Orange]



A girl sighed as she stared at the starry night sky from her window
 It's just another Sunday but it was a bit different
She took her journal and flipped the pages until finally stopping at a blank page
She held her pen and started writing

"What is memories?

Now that’s a tough question. There is no clear definition of those like how you define medical terms. Some simple, smallest things may ignite your past chapters even when they died long ago. In my case it’s an orange.

Let me start by telling you a short recap of my story. Basically, I used to have a close friend with brightest smile ever. No, I’m not lying! He was very friendly and smiled a lot, he gave a very warm feeling and I guess it charmed me. I’m sure women are all attracted to his warmth. We used to text until very late at night-I must admit I was a bit infatuated too.

But here’s a fun fact for you all- nothing lasts forever. We both got really busy and drifted apart-he became cold and he always looked exhausted. I was worried, but one can’t do anything when ignored. I was confused where we went wrong. Did I offend him somehow? But there’s no way for me to confirm. He was very busy with his work and projects while I was also losing sleep over my job and education assignments. Before long, it faded.

It did, really

Then I started to remember those happy times, sometimes it made me angry other times it made me confused and sad. Alas, all emotions do fade away (or maybe I should say get buried). I was caught up with my job, goals and stuff. I started befriending new people too. We have met a few times after that but I couldn’t speak to him, he seemed to avoid me too. Sometimes I wonder what I did to lose such great friend.

Until yesterday

I met him in a temple as we were chanting prayers and he still avoided my gaze as usual despite sitting behind me. I’d really given up by that point, really. As we were chanting prayers, we heard loud vibrating but couldn’t find the source. I checked my phones, both not on vibrate mode. I stared at the man sitting in front of me and he helped me search. We searched but saw no phone, and we chuckled. Then I heard his voice from behind, “Above. Above, check above dispenser”. He sounded displeased so I did not bother looking at him- I mean, why was he so annoying to me?

We had to come forward one by one to kneel in front of Buddha statue and bow three times. As it was end of year, we had to thank for all blessings received that year and apologize for our sins. After we finished, the priestess would give us some food from altar to be eaten as blessing. My gaze was set on some delicious-looking steamed buns but nobody really gets to choose these things. There were lots of oranges; green and orange (Orange colored… Ugh, Is orange named orange because it is orange colored or is orange color named so because it is the same as oranges? And how come there is no word that rhymes with orange? Oranges are such a mystery!)

The priestess handed me an orange-colored orange (I’m tired just by typing this) ,chosen among the green oranges. I’m not a fan of eating orange to be honest but it’s fine. I walked back carrying my cute orange and saw him. It was his turn, he came forward calmly and prayed. I cussed mentally, Dear priestess, don’t you dare give him steamed bun or anything tastier than mine! He was given...

An orange orange, 
among green ones

Yes, another orange…orange (this is tiring)

What a coincidence, I thought to myself. Is this because of my envy about food—Nonono, better not, I inwardly muttered. I placed the orange on my head and tried to balance it to distract myself. The prayer session lasted much faster than I expected and we headed downstairs to have vegetarian lunch provided by the temple. I kept coincidentally met him but we really had nothing to talk about.
Then as he was going to head home, he dropped his orange-right in front of me.

His mom laughed, ”You’ve dropped the orange five times”
He sighed and laughed, “I think this orange doesn’t like being with me. You should keep it, mom”
I laughed , I couldn’t help it. That orange joke was funny! “Pfftt, orange not liking you. Hahahahahahah”. 

He chuckled again and spoke in a calm voice, ”You know… Some oranges are meant to be yours while others not. We can’t force those oranges”. He then left, he was avoiding my gaze all the way but I was certain he was talking to me. AND HE SMILED, not glared at me! THAT was surprising. I’m not gonna lie, it made me feel… Happy.

That feeling of eating bread with marmalade, sweet and sour.

(Yes, I know Strawberry jam tastes like that too but since we were discussing orange… Let me use marmalade!)

But wait…
So, that orange wise sayings… We both got same oranges right?

Is he trying to say that I can’t force him to befriend me or is it the other way around? Is he sending me a message to give up or is he expressing apology in an orange way? Then again, it was HIS orange that fell and rejected him so…He's regretting?  But maybe he didn’t mean anything and I’m over-analyzing these oranges.

Umm…

Maybe…Just…

But…

…

I give up! Whatever it is, at least we talked again. I smiled and thought to myself, let some mysteries remain unsolved. For now I will refer to it as…


[Code Orange]  "

The girl smiled and closed her journal,then went to sleep.
 I'm sure I will dream about oranges


P.S : Thank you for inspiring this story with orange quote, my friend. It gave me info to imagine and write this short story!

Monday, August 3, 2015

Lila's Midnight Birthday Surprise

Today has been the worst day of my life, seriously.
I don't know , I just don't know what went wrong-- no,nothing went right at all.
Since morning, my day has been nothing but a HUGE mess with my assignments piling up, fatigue, bad health,financial problems and now my family is having real war.
Even my sister nearly went mad.
War of conflicts... Meh

I hate it, I hate today!
All I wanted was a peaceful life. Is it so wrong?

Hmm?
Someone texted me... Who on earth?
Happy Birthday, Dear Lila!
Happy my ass ,I've been happier any random days.
I know I'm ranting so selfishly-everyone has their own problems. I KNOW
This is so childish but at least today,once a year, I want to feel special.
Or at least happy.
My eyes are so red and swollen now, I am a total mess.So ugly
I've cried all my tears,I just...

...

I guess I have calmed down.
College test is coming in an hour... I haven't even reviewed.
I don't feel like it either.
I guess I will just pray none of my friends notice or they pretend not to.
I don't need any presents, I just want my family to be well-off.

***
The test was not hard ,thankfully-though I did find problems in answering the last question. My classmate was kind enough to make me surprise and celebrate my birthday. We laughed and shared the huge chocolate cake. I am so thankful of them,I repeat again and again as I stare at the pictures we took just now. Oh well,time to go to my club class!

***
My clubmates are also celebrating my birthday. I'm so touched... I never expected they'd find out and provide such surprise. It'd be a lie if I said I didn't almost cry. Thank you,everyone-again and again and again. I feel so loved,so loved! I laugh too much today. I'm so happy.

***
I'm now at home, eyes swollen again. Earlier, there was a phone call from my dad telling me mom isn't feeling well and almost fainted. I rushed home,bawling like a fool.
It hurts so much.
I was so worried, so worried
I was scared I'd lose my mom
I love you mom, God don't take her away
Help her... Help us...

She's okay now,resting. She's asleep and her breathing is back to normal. I sigh,still weeping. Why do all these things happen on the day I was born? Am I cursed? Am I a devil spawn?

A message came in my phone
From a friend of mine

"Wanna grab dinner together?". It's 21:00 but I guess it is okay.. I just don't want to be alone tonight. It is very reckless of me to even go out with a friend this late, but I'm sure it will be okay. He is my close but not close friend from abroad,I call him K most of the time. He's coincidentally in town. He parked near my house and I hopped onto his car.

We decided to grab quick bite in the nearest fast food chain restaurant.I don't know if he notices my swollen eyes or not (well impossible not to notice) but he keeps joking around, throwing me with lame pickup lines and before I knew it, I was laughing so lightly as if there's no problem. We keep discussing about random stuff,from normal to crazy ones and laugh.

At this point ,I suspect both our parents at home are already about to kill us but

Well

Let me have my moments at least for the remaining hours for today,alright?
I laugh as I munch my nuggets.

I know this friend of mine loves to compliment others and joke around with his abundant stock of pickup lines and I too,joke the same way. It just feels good to talk without real burdens. I know he doesn't mean all he said and they were all jokes but still it made me happy to laugh a lot after rounds of tears. My only concern is that I look real ugly,heehee.

I have no idea why he is kind enough to do this, I know he is a very busy person.Sometimes he doesn't even return messages because he's just too busy. I will consider this a little gift from God to make me laugh at least for hours.

He's one funny guy who told me my nugget set (upsized!) is too little and he's afraid I will get thin just after hours with him. (I'd thank him if that really happened).He jokingly called me chubby and stuff and I just laughed. That friend of mine gave me books wrapped in calender paper (very creative)

It's almost midnight when I reached home. I felt...lighter. I know after this we will both be very busy again and will forget to contact each other again. I'm gonna be once again be stressed with huge wave of assignments and tests but...
Thanks for the memorable night, pal!

Sometimes, even in our darkest nights, God will give us little surprises. If we look careful enough,we might find reasons to smile again.
Be strong and believe in happiness.

My best friend texted me, "Lilaaaaaaa!!! How was your day?"
"Best, Mary. Best"

Thank you very much for making my day special!!! Tears aside,this is the best birthday in my life.

The next days, I got more belated surprises that warm my heart greatly but I will never fail to laugh when I remember choking my Cola over a lame pickup line. God, thanks for Your unique choice of gift to this little daughter of yours.

May there be a shining light behind every clouds you see
May there be a rainbow after rain
May smile always be painted on our faces


With love,
Your friend